This is a sweet, sweet moment. A lovely, much wanted good-bye to a year-long project, the 365 Photography Project.
For those who’ve been following my project, you know how often I’ve gone back-and-forth about this project.
“I hope to see…healing.”
“I really, really think this week turned out to be a fun collection of images.”
“I’m on the fence regarding this week.”
“[The Holga] taught me, no matter what equipment I use, I can still produce a magnificent shot.”
“My relationship with my photography is a love-hate relationship!”
“What the fuck did I try to do to myself?!”
But, I did it! I didn’t do it perfectly, and I am absolutely, positively okay with that. For sure.
Day 357 THEME: COLOR – Prep for a homemade apple cider for the Christmas festivities!
Last year was a busy year of volunteering, school activities and personal photography projects. The 365 became a chore, more often, than a desire. It got monotonous, tiresome, boring, disappointing. However, there were valuable moments and scenes I was able to capture and put to use (other than placing them on my hard-drive to hide in the recesses of thousands of other images): the mourning of my wild, handsome Gato, petting a sad and lonely owl, the cherry blossoms at the Kintai bridge, Rudy playing “tea” with Kalina, light experimentation with fellow photogs, watching a proud Japanese husband walk his gushing bride through a crowd of tourists in wonder and curiosity, the homeless, the wishful, and the growth of myself and my daughter, Kalina.
Day 357 – Kalina’s first, second, third, fourth, fifth and sixth haircuts!
Through the commitment of a daily picture (mostly everyday), I was able to commit to myself and be proud of who I am, whether I like what comes out of my camera or not.
Day 359 THEME: FAVE PIC OF THE DAY – Christmas Eve dinner at a cosy restaurant called Kinnan. The steak is so good!
Day 360 THEME: FAVE PIC OF THE DAY – Taken by the hubs, but a wonderful capture.
Day 360 THEME: FAVE PIC OF THE DAY – Another wonderful Christmas gathering. Our family away from family.
I was in counseling a good portion of 2015 and 2016. Through the techniques and advice I was given, I was able to understand who I am and mostly, who I want to be. One session, I had an epiphany, I really do, deeply and completely love myself. I do have moments where I wish I had more or something different, then I check my female calendar and realize those thoughts will pass in two days! So, on those days where I truly disliked my images, I just let those days come with full acceptance as part of my life.
Day 361 THEME: BEFORE NOON – As it turns out, I really, really enjoy assembling nanoblocks! Haha. I actually was excited when Kalina would destroy them. “Yes! I get to put it together again.”
Along with the 365 Project, I was able to satisfy my 2016 New Year’s Resolution, Twelve Books in Twelve Months. Now, I didn’t specify how I could complete those books; therefore, audiobooks were included, which brought me to a total of 15 books in 2016! That is 15 more than I’ve read in the last three years.
Day 362 THEME: BLACK AND WHITE – My favorite book of the year? Probably “The Alchemist” by Paulo Coelho. The book I don’t remember anything about? “The Almost Moon” by Alice Sebold. *haha 00ps*
What a great book to end the year with! It gives me so much willpower to achieve everything I want for 2017.
Will I try again to complete a 365 Photography Project? Not in the near future, or even distant future.
Day 363 THEME: AFTER 4 PM – On our way back from a day trip to an awesome kidsland called Nikke Pure Heart in Hatsukaichi.
Day 364 THEME: COLOR
Day 365 THEME: FOOD AND/OR DRINK – Lunch. Yum.
Throughout the latter part of this project, my husband started picking up my camera and capturing some wonderful shots. The project somewhat morphed into a collaborative project between me and him. Simultaneously, our relationship morphed as well. Seven-year-itch come and gone? Or just breaking through egos? Whatever it was, it’s gone.
Along with this 365. *giggle*
So, on the evening of New Year’s Eve, I stood in the kitchen, prepping a pie for an after-dinner dessert, and I looked through the pass-through of the kitchen to the dining table where Kalina and Rudy were finishing up. All year, I looked through my lens at my family. There were moments when I would put the camera down, sacrificing the 365 to enjoy the beauty of family, of life, but this time, I stopped what I was doing when I saw the happiness on Kalina’s face. I quickly grabbed my camera, sacrificing the pie this time, to capture the last beautiful moment of 2016. All of our efforts as parents, the love, the discipline, the home-cooked meals and cute cakes bought at patisseries, summed up in one, beautiful, contented smile. Who knows what Daddy said, and who cares.
Day 366 THEME: FAVE PIC OF THE DAY